What is my Primary Relationship?

Two weeks ago I had what I would like to call an epiphany! We were visiting some long-standing friends at a remote old vicarage in Norfolk. The host and I were discussing The Glass Bead Game by Hermann Hesse, and I was comparing my host's life-style to that of the Game Masters in the book, and how intellectualism had become more important than relationships. That truth was somehow at loggerheads with love.

Suddenly, during the conversation, I had the feeling that I was at the still point of the turning world, and I realised that my primary relationship had really always been with myself, not with God!  From my first excitement of being becoming a Christian some 38 years ago, I had slowly drifted, with ups and downs, to the state of shadowy spiritual evanescence that I now found myself in.

Co-incidentally with that moment was the instant enlightenment of being transposed to accept and apply a new primary relationship with God! It was an amazing existential experience that released my whole being into a new freedom under the mercy and grace of God.

Not only that, but I now find that my personal relationships fit into place in the pattern of my life. No more do I feel the need to control or cajole. By choosing to make my primary relationship with God, I have broken unhealthy bonds. This means I can now love all my family, friends and neighbours with a new freedom - without trying to impress or striving to be liked.

Truth and love are one in Christ Jesus!

Hopefully I can maintain the freshness of this new primary relationship with God.  I will blog again on this, so that I can check my progress!